Some said maybe I'm a loser but I think I'm not.
I can't forget everything coz I don't want to.
I'm not waiting but I just let it be.
If I said I'm waiting,
it will hurt me the most when I know he loves somebody else.
My heart is so cold,
I don't really need human's love now.
Sometimes I'm thinking bout him,
Are you okay ?
Are you happy ?
Are you miss me ?
How's your study ?
Are you still with that girl ?
Sounds funny but I really really wanna know about him.
But then, I will never ever get the answers.
Therefore, I just pray to Allah for his happiness.
Am I a loser ?
I love to be this way even though it just like a dream, fantasy.
It's not real at all.
I can't see him with my own eyes.
I can't hear his voice and I can't see his smiles anymore.
Well, I believe someday,
I will meet someone who is love me until his last breath.
My true love maybe.
How bout him ?
Maybe he will happy with his partner.
If I could be his friend now,
I don't think I would be strong just like now.
Allah knows everything.
I love the flows that He created for me.
Totally beautiful even though I always crying again and again.
I was crying at Him every time I pray, asking for His helps.
I'm just okay.
By writing this kind of entry,
it makes me become stronger.
I love myself, my family and people surrounding me.
I would not waste my life with all the sad things.
I just need your prays for me,
I do really need your support.